February 13, 2013

Anonymous asked: Should I have sex with as many people as I can before I "settle down"?

This makes me think about mining. 

In Australia, opal mining happens in a fairly primitive way. The opals are formed when silicate rocks are subjected to high-temperature water as the water snakes its way through deep-underground faults. The opals are then found stretched over a wide area, as nodes in a spidery network of rock faults. This means they have to be mined with a scattershot method. 

What usually happens is that a prospector hooks an enormous auger to the back of a truck and drives it out to the middle of nowhere. He anchors the truck with hydraulic lifts and drills the spiral bit of the auger into the Earth. He sifts the hill of dirt and broken rocks that the augur forces up out of the shaft it bores. And he either finds opals or he doesn’t. This type of mining has turned vast areas of opal-bearing land into swiss cheese. Full of vertical graves ninety feet deep and just wide enough to ensure you go all the way down. It has become a landscape where it’s suicide to walk around at night.

Rock salt is mined in a very different way. Geologic salt is usually laid down when an ancient sea dries up. And the salt flat it leaves behind is first buried, then folded into a corrugated sheet as it is compressed and distorted by the weight of rock above it. This tends to produce huge volumes of nearly pure salt. These volumes can be equivalent to a cube of salt, a half-mile on each side, just buried in the Earth. 

Formations like these tend to be mined in a way that turns them into architecture. That is, the salt tends to be so extensive and so deeply buried that the only way of excavating it is to make a kind of subterranean building whose only structural material is rock salt. Salt pillars, salt arches, salt hallways and salt galleries. The miners getting what they want from the formation—by necessity—creates something else: a vast and secret building, hidden underground and given definition by what has been drilled out of it. 

So you can be out there drilling dry well after dry well, flagrant in your destruction of an entire landscape. All in search of a fourth rate gemstone. 

Or you can be otherwise. And realize that beneath even the most featureless Kansan field, a secret city can be excavated. Vast, unified and private. Far too majestic ever to be confused with a grave.

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February 10, 2013

Anonymous asked: I want you to be happy?

I can remember the time, when I used to sleep quietly

without workings in my thoughts,

whole nights together,

                        but now

it is other ways with me

 

 

 

                                    

           a tree nearly always grow such that

the diameters of all its branches at a particular height

added together

equal that of the trunk at

its thickest point

 

 

 

            I am the selfish person’s idea of a thoughtful person

                        The happiest of all lives is a busy solitude

                                    only those who hope to transform

                                           human beings end up burning them

 

 

 

 

I haven’t yet

reached the day when

I will not need another

to hold my hand in

my wrongness

 

 

 

For a long time I wasn’t afraid of being unhappy because I didn’t believe that it was different from necessity—

  

 

 

 

                                   the fat ribs of peace
Must by the Hungry happy now be fed upon

 

the refusal of praise is only the

                wish to be praised twice

 

 

 

 

 

                                                                                    Feb. 3 1904

Dear Joe:
            How life & the world—the past & the future —are looking—to me? As they have been looking to me the last 7 years: as being NON-EXISTENT.
            That is, that there is nothing. That there is no God and no universe; that there is only empty space, and in it a lost and homeless and wandering and companionless and indestructible Thought. And I am that thought. And God, and the Universe, and Time, and Life, and Death, and Joy and Sorrow and Pain only a grotesque and brutal dream, evolved from the frantic imagination of that insane Thought.
                                                                        Yr friend,

                                                                                    Mark Twain


 

 

let’s make it to Vicenza when everything falls

apart and live—you and I—in

the Teatro Olimpico

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

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February 9, 2013

The real comfort of anonymity is not having to know yourself.

 

            Hi, I’m Claude Glass

                       

                        all the knowledge

I have wrung from the darkness

 

non-stick axe

 

I was the swash of blood

I was the glint of recognition

I was the best of me

I was the muffled sigh

I was the coward’s face

I was the drunken cry

I was the rhetoric of love

 

I paint the star I sawed from the yellow pine—

And plant the sign

In soil that does not yet refuse

Its usual Jews.

 

I live in warshington dc for

four an a half years

and I’d jus be as soon in hell

with my back broke

as live thar

 

boiling a ruby in an art gallery

 

savage enormity

            long awfulness

                        fair but not generous

 

we learn that it is not for man to follow the trail of truth

too far, since by doing so he entirely loses

the directing compass of his mind: for

arrived at the Pole, to whose barrenness only it points,

there,

the needle indifferently respects

all points of the horizon,

alike

 

That moment was like that other hole you punch in the can of Hawaiian Punch so that the liquid can come out of the first hole

 

slightly closer to the heart of creation than is usual,

\But still not close enough.

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February 7, 2013

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February 5, 2013

I think that’s dead on. It makes me think about two branches of how things tend to go. They extend in opposite directions. One makes me think of comic books, and the other of photography.

Everyone knows Action Comics No. 1. Or rather, they know it because of the seven figure prices that good copies of it command. This fact has inspired several generations of collectors to preserve their comics until the day when ‘they’re worth something.’ It doesn’t take a degree in economics to see the problem with this. Action Comics No. 1 is expensive because it was once valueless, and so very few copies of it have survived. If comic books are treasured nowadays, they will never be scarce and so there will be no market for them in the future. This fact turns all those plastic sleeves into transparent coffins, where the value of a comic book rots away even as its body is perfectly preserved. This is an example of how an unintended consequence can reach back to strangle the entire enterprise. To nobody’s profit except the manufacturers of little plastic sleeves.

There’s another way that unintended consequences can frustrate our intentions. And in such a way as to make the death of our intentions into the birth of something much more interesting. The invention of photography is a good example.

Around 1800, there was an intense desire to make descriptions of the world that approached objective truth. Isaac Newton and Pierre-Simon Laplace had shown how every motion in the universe was ‘really’ an expression of simple mathematical relationships. The industrial revolution had shown how the optimized motion of a machine could drastically increase production, slash labor costs and excrete the difference as titanic sums of money. These mathematical and mechanical ways of treating our experience would hybridize to become the scaffolding of the world which we presently inhabit.

Enter Nicéphore Niépce, Henry Fox Talbot and Johann Erdmann Hummel.

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(1827)

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(1835)

 Niépce is usually credited with being the first person to make a permanent record of an object, solely by projecting the light it reflected onto a sensitive surface. Talbot did the same thing, ten years later and in England. Their contributions to photography are well-known. What is less well-known is how their photographic experiments emerged from an inability to draw. Niépce had a hand-tremor that made him incapable of drawing a straight line and Talbot was simply untalented. Both men initially saw the permanent photographic process as a means of producing mechanically what they couldn’t create artistically: realistic and objective records of the world they lived in. Niépce and Talbot couldn’t draw to save their lives and so had to invent chemical photography.  

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 (1831)

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 (1831)

At precisely the same moment, 1831, a German artist named Johann Erdmann Hummel was inventing photography from the other end. His subject was an enormous granite bowl, commissioned by the Kaiser and installed in Berlin’s Lustgarten. Hummel would paint two pictures of this bowl looking through a variety of lenses to flatten its perspective and enhance its detail. These paintings depict the bowl with such incredible realism as to be far and away the most photographic images for twenty years after the invention of chemical photography. In the sense that Hummel created ‘realer’ images of his subject than anything Niépce or Talbot could produce, it isn’t an exaggeration to call him the better photographer. The fact that photography would come to be understood only as the chemical production of images from reflected light shouldn’t get in the way of seeing the much more important point: Hummel invented photography too. And in a form that satisfied the age’s desire for an objective record far more successfully than any other process available at the time.

The reason I bring this up isn’t to monkey with who gets credit for inventing photography, it’s to explain the why of its emergence. Photography wasn’t an accident and it wasn’t created by tinkerers. It was the result of longrunning project to see the world in an intensely rational way.

But reasons only satisfy reason, and people like Niépce, Talbot and Hummel destroyed realistic art with them. Photography’s ability to perfectly reproduce any object that would reflect light ended up making realistic painting first obsolete, then tedious and finally anesthetizing. This last quality would undermine the conception of our world that gave rise to photography in the first place.

What’s the point of dedicating your life to the exquisite observation of the world so you can later record it in paint when there’s a machine that does it for you? Very few inventions have been as devastating to the human faculty they made obsolete as was photography’s detonation of realistic art. For something equivalent you have to go back to whatever written language must have done to memorization. Or spoken language to smell. All this becomes painfully ironic when you remember that the fuse was lit by three men who thought they were advancing realism in art.

By bringing reason to bear on a problem that doesn’t properly concern it, these men erected the same empty scaffold that goes up every time rationalism exceeds its authority. Photography certainly does produce realistic images of the world but its facility at doing that eventually empties those images of meaning. Cheapening not only photographs, but everything that tries to be realistic. This is because—after photography—realistic works of art seemed not to resemble their subjects, but only photographs of them. (If you don’t believe me, remember that the World Trade Center towers seemed like nothing so much as scenes from an action movie as they collapsed. And that actually happened…) And all we’re left with is an unpleasantly rigid way of seeing the world. But that’s what life is like in the empty scaffold that science x industry is as skilled at erecting as it is inept at filling.

The point here is that photography killed what it tried to perfect. Killed it just as dead as greed has killed the future market for comic books. But whereas the unintended consequences of greed tend to sterilize, photography’s destruction of realism made art almost uncontrollably fertile. Greed is inherently small-minded. It has to operate inside the dense scaffolding of economics and so frequently strangles itself as it tries to expand. The rational scaffolding that photography represents spread contagiously and nearly consumed art in the 19th Century. But not entirely. And in an organic, human domain like art, anything less than complete eradication ends up only pruning.

            Clearing the field for a realization.

Photography’s perfection of realistic art—barren as it was—forced a long-overdue recognition: reality is not the same as realism. Moreover, that a surplus of realism doesn’t sharpen our awareness of reality, but anesthetizes it instead.

 Enter the spate of famous artists whose work demonstrates this point. Monet, Renoir, Van Gogh, Matisse, Picasso, Duchamp, Rothko, Dan Flavin.

            Unamusingly,

the works of art themselves have in turn been consumed by precisely the same cycle of greed as Action Comics No. 1. And on an industrial scale. The expansion of the science x industry scaffold produces a lot of money. Which has been used to capture art, and once again embed it in a scaffolding foreign to its nature. The only difference is that artists—unlike Marvel—can decide that they no longer want to play. They can decline to find their place in the scaffold. Cease to create the ever more expensive anesthetics the wealthy need to absolve themselves of guilt. Cease to manufacture the kind of culture that makes life in the scaffold bearable. In favor of one that prefers ashes to expansion. And dirt on its ass to vertiginous heights.  

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February 1, 2013

Anonymous asked: would you like people to pay attention to you?

The trick is to become like a mirror. 

There’s a really good reason we say ‘have a look in the mirror’ instead of ‘have a look at the mirror.’ Mirrors are almost too obvious examples of things that have no existence independent of us. What they are is nearly always what is in them—which is to say, us.

Mirrors are what let you see the parts of yourself unavailable to direct inspection. Your face, the back of your head, your eyes. There’s something nice about how strange it is that we need sheets of glass—that are nothing in themselves—in order to see the rest of our self. 

So it’s fine to want people to pay attention to you, but only as long as the you you’re showing them is so elusive that all they end up seeing is themselves. More clearly, and from perspectives that are unavailable to them without your help.

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An eminent philosopher among my friends, who can dignify even your ugly furniture by lifting it into the serene light of science, has shown me this pregnant little fact. Your pier-glass or extensive surface of polished steel made to be rubbed by a housemaid, will be minutely and multitudinously scratched in all directions; but place now against it a lighted candle as a centre of illumination, and lo! the scratches will seem to arrange themselves in a fine series of concentric circles round that little sun. It is demonstrable that the scratches are going everywhere impartially, and it is only your candle which produces the flattering illusion of a concentric arrangement, its light falling with an exclusive optical selection. These things are a parable. The scratches are events, and the candle is the egoism of any person…

An eminent philosopher among my friends, who can dignify even your ugly furniture by lifting it into the serene light of science, has shown me this pregnant little fact. Your pier-glass or extensive surface of polished steel made to be rubbed by a housemaid, will be minutely and multitudinously scratched in all directions; but place now against it a lighted candle as a centre of illumination, and lo! the scratches will seem to arrange themselves in a fine series of concentric circles round that little sun. It is demonstrable that the scratches are going everywhere impartially, and it is only your candle which produces the flattering illusion of a concentric arrangement, its light falling with an exclusive optical selection. These things are a parable. The scratches are events, and the candle is the egoism of any person…

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January 21, 2013

Anonymous asked: I feel like I’ve worked well paid, no-effort entry level office jobs for so long I’ve forgotten how to work hard. If I even knew to start with. My 20’s are ending and I’m trying to push myself into some kind of field that I can picture myself making a career in, but the picture is always the same slacker piece of shit going nowhere - just in a different field. What happens to people like me

When you were a kid you had a kind of inebriation for work, which everyone else called play.

But that evaporates sooner or later. Sooner or later you find yourself getting bored a lot.

You’ll be doing something that you know is good for you, or even something you want to do, and all of a sudden you’ll be yawning through clenched teeth. The floor of your mouth strains painfully and your teeth chatter as your jaws struggle to open.

This is what it feels like to have your energy evaporate. Suddenly to find yourself awake in name only. Just blunt consciousness, and resentful of having even that much. Cousin of sleep, 2nd cousin of death.

This is what it feels like to have possibility narrow for you. When the child was a child it didn’t know it was a child. And so could work at anything. You might not be an adult, but you’re certainly no longer a child. As your awareness opens out, the possibilities of play shrink. The more sophisticated your interactions with the world become, the less worthwhile doing anything for its own sake begins to seem. Until play ceases to be the point of being awake and becomes instead the anesthetic that makes awareness bearable.

Cast around and find the thing that makes this true for you:

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 Do something that makes you feel stupid:

  • Don’t eat anything for four days and then break the fast with bite of something you hate. I promise it will taste different. 
  • Drink a pot of coffee and watch a Kurosawa movie you’ve never seen with the subtitles and sound both turned off. See if you can get the point from just the camerawork. 
  • Tell people you have a corneal abrasion as an excuse to wear an eyepatch for a week, and see how you’ve taken stereoscopy for granted. 
  • Build a pseudoscope. 
  • Or none of these.

The point is that you’re beginning to see just how much of an unnecessary duplicate your life could become. One tooth in an enormous comb of utterly parallel lives, each being lived in the same niche, wearing the same track in the same tax bracket. Crumbling toward the same irrelevance.

But you already know what happens to people like you. Kids who have this problem have parents who are this problem.

 

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I like it as a symbol. A cigarette is a little thing you can hold between your fingers that represents an essential fact of being alive.

On the one hand you want to be able to make yourself feel a certain way, and so you smoke to do that. For example, you feel time moving past you and it’s like trying to drink the full flow of a garden hose. Cigarettes are like buoys you throw out into time. Little red lights that bob in its expanse. If they don’t quite control time, at least they spread something regular over its surface. In the same way the grid on a map lets you know the ‘where’ of something, which is nearly as good as owning it.

But on the other hand, the cigarettes control us. The fact that we use cigarettes to force time into a shape is something that can’t be reconciled with the fact that cigarettes use us to get smoked.

That’s a good symbol for life.

For how the top-down control we want to have over our lives meets, mingles with, and becomes indistinguishable from a bottom-up control in which we have no say at all. Orders descend from the head and orders rise from the body. The two meet and blame becomes impossible to assign.

That’s all of History right there. Was everything just great men giving orders, exerting control and forcing their will on the world? Or was it all the weather?

Neither and both. You’re a thicket of mind and flesh, just like the world.

Or at least that’s what I think of when I look at a cigarette.

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